In Pursuit of His Wisdom

Lord, Your love knows no bounds. I am so selfish; so blind at times. I become lost in a pause; glancing back in self-pity. I am lost in my own darkness. I’ve turned my gaze from You, and now suddenly it’s nightfall.

Wandering blindly; aimless and self-seeking. I am everywhere, yet nowhere that I intended to be. Stumbling in the dark; tripping over vines, falling into bushes. Feeling confident in my forward-march, yet in truth I am spiraling deeper into demise.

The original yet still most destructive sin–I have put self in the center, replacing the greatness of Your glory with my own selfishness and pride.

I could have cried out to You in faith, while the night was not yet done. I could have sung songs of praise and hope and faith as I waited for the sun. No, I chose momentary blindness; never realizing that I was staring into the bleakness of my very own soul.

Light begins to chase darkness, as the morning’s first beams dance for the dawn. I deserve the darkness, yet Your infinitely great love refuses to abandon me into my own self-imprisoned void.

You seek me out; call me by name. You come and grasp my hand; You uncover my eyes.You say,

“Come, You’ve lost your way in the night! Come child, take my hand! We can enjoy the freshness of the morning together, you and I. The dew on the flowers, the cotton candy sky. We can listen to the birds of the morning sing their songs to the moon and stars, beautiful lullabies. Hand-in-hand, we’ll stroll the path together; back to the place where I am; back to the place where you belong.”

Forgive me Father; for when I lack gratitude, that is when I lose sight of You. Relentless love; Christ make me more like You.

As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.

Psalm 103:12

What if this life is about brokenness?

What if brokenness makes solitude? 

What if misery is eventual satisfaction? What if everyone sees the brokenness because they’ll never see the beautiful if they can’t look through the lens of discontentment? What if this life is about brokenness?? Grace. That one thing; it’s perfect, it’s our merciful peace grantor. Forever the same. Alpha & Omega; refine me.

Therein lies my stronghold.

You love me without measure;

You cover me as a babe.

As an innocent child; blameless, serene.

No wrong remains beneath the blanket of Your mercy.

Restoration is Your workshop;

And trials the site of a new project just begun.

Your favor not defined by human success, perpetual happiness, nor ever-fortunate happenstance for a future yet begun.

Your favor is growth in Spirit and Faith; hope of the life everlasting.

You challenge Your children;

You know their own existence, because You lived it as Your own.

You know how deeply their love is rooted in Your goodness and Your love;

How fondly their hearts sing praises, the love of Your Mercy now and forevermore.

You know that even the most cursed circumstance is destined to drive Your child deeper;

A work in progress; relentless to capture the heart of His beloved.

He is the master of artistry and design; He was and He is, Heaven on earth.

Divine perfection; His Holiness certain; Grace undeserved;

Your Love forever mine.

His Noise quiets us within.

July 24th 2020

Lord are You sure? Not me? How could I be used by You God? You are the Almighty Father, The Creator of the Universe!?……

Your Words fall as rain on a tin roof.

Your strength grows as the roar deepens.

Near Silence interjects-

A quiet calm settles.

Pitter-patter of the drops falling;

There is something so beautiful.

Something so near-perfect, yet words could never do it justice.

Beauty in serenity;

Perfection in creation.

Although the present state of this world may seem completely flipped and scattered; God is still the same–today, tomorrow, last year, this year, and forevermore.

The Author and Finisher of our Faith; forever holding the hearts of His Children.

Perfect, Gracious, Merciful Father.

I love You.

–KelseyRaye

“Sometimes we find ourselves at the bottom. Sometimes it feels like there is no possibility that we could ever live up to the person You promised that we were meant to be.

Yet we know that You are true, and Your promises never fail. In those dark and deep places when we cannot see the light; we are blindly traveling, dredging forward because we have made faith principle above all. It’s not always happy.

Quite often we feel that there is no way that we are even capable of reaching the other end of that black and endlessly daunting tunnel.

Hopelessness, we lose faith in ourselves, and that’s okay sometimes; just as long as we know that we will never and can never lose hope in You. That hope is the train that will carry the broken souls that last few miles through that darkness.

But Mercy; Mercy stretches out its arms. Your Spirit gives these thirsty souls a sip of Your eternal Water. And just like a tiny candle in the vastness of a darkened tunnel, Your one drop of Mercy is capable of transforming a downtrodden soul into a hopeful, excited warrior!

You are the Light, and the darkness cannot hide! But we cannot taste Your mercy with closed eyes and hope-abandoned hearts.

Recognizing and surrendering our pride; experiencing the humility it requires to hold tight to faith for Your outcome. When we know it is impossible on our own accord; that is where the Father’s heart and that of His child collides.

You are making something beautiful out of us, and it will be Oh so beautiful in Your perfect time!”

How great and amazing and powerful is our God? The deeper we dive into Your faithfulness, the more beauty and splendor we experience! On the other hand, we cannot go deeper into the unknown without enduring the pressure that it costs to dive into deeper waters time and time again…

It is at the edge of our comfort zones–when the ears pop and the heart races, when the throat drops into the stomach, and the mind spins ever-faster into the anxiety of the unknown–it is in these times that, without a shadow of a doubt, we can know that he is drawing us closer to Him. He is calling His child by name. To take His Hand or not; to put more faith in Him than in what is comfortable–that is up to us.

Carbon is the most abundant solid element on this earth, but do you know what is also composed of carbon alone? DIAMONDS—One of the most precious stones on this earth. How could such an everyday common element which composes the greater portion of dirt, grass, concrete, trees, etc., also be the composition of one of the most valuable stones in the world?

TIME. ENVIRONMENT. HEAT. PRESSURE. GROWTH. ENDURANCE. CHANGE.

Just as heat and pressure over time turn the most common of elements into the most precious of stones, so God’s faithfulness walks with us, and He is working through us on this journey. He’s forging jewels from the very worst version of ourselves. He never saw His child as anything other than beloved, chosen, and loved. Just as we only polish what is prized and valuable to us, so the Father polishes the one He values and loves. He never loses sight of the value of His chosen and precious child.

Romans 5:3-4